Up to this point

AM I HOMESICK or AM I DISTANCING MYSELF? Up to this point, i really don't know. Since yesterday, i've been having mix feelings and extra not hyped up. Its not that i'm doing it on purpose, i just feel i dont have the energy in me, you know? You know the energy i used to have. I'm not PMS-ing or anything. WHAT THE HELL IS THE MATTER WITH? It feels like as if i have a nervous break down or some sort of sudden depression thing going on. Forcing a laughter out of myself is SO HARD, you have no idea.

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